With all that has gone on with my family these past few months, I am completely exhausted, mentally and physically. Cancer is the pits. Readjusting our lives and making sure everyone in our little family is safe and sane and as comfortable as possible has taken precidence over almost anything. The last thing usually on the list is myself but lately, with everyone getting a little more used to whats going on, I can get back to what makes me happy.
Baking. "To bake is to breathe" says Mariel as she looks across the table at everything she just made. Lemon cake with raspberry jam and lemon buttercream to go with the batch of mini cupcakes filled with lemon curd, gluten free vanilla filled chocolate cupcakes and blueberry macarons.
There is simply nothing I would rather do all day, everyday than bake. I decorate cakes and cupcakes and make little sweet petites at work, but when I am able to take butter, sugar, flour and make it into anything I want, to be able to study it and develop it into what hopefully will end up as a little speck to be cleaned up by a napkin on someones delighted mouth, well, I am in heaven.
I am designing what hopefully will be a sucessful event where people can come and enjoy some dessert- the dessert that people have seen on this blog which hopefully could lead to some business, eventually leading up to the OriginalCinn empire that will over throw the over-buttered Mrs. Deen and the like. Although, Cat Cora and I should totally get together sometime because she is delightful...sigh...Anyway, planning this thing, is very exciting and quite a lot of fun. I am crossing my fingers and dotting my "I's" to make sure this event is well planned, and everything looks great and tastes fabulous.
It took me a little bit to be able to get back to baking, all things considered. But it is important to maintain a sense of self and to keep busy in a fun and productive way to stay positive and sane. So I just keep breathing, and keep going and keep baking as best as I can so all of this can go somewhere.